Spiritual Director.

Dc. M returned me E-mail about me dilemma. He offered some great advice: 

"Often, when we come down from our “mountain top” experiences with God, we are faced with our human realities that can cause us to experience doubt.

Don’t worry too much about your second thoughts.  God allows our faith to be tested when he is calling us to great things.  We must learn to master our thoughts and our passions and direct them to God, because your temptations and doubts will increase as you fulfill God’s call.

Just remember to pray the rosary every day, and consecrate yourself to Mary.  Place yourself under her care, just as Jesus entrusted himself to Mary and Joseph in the Holy Family.

Also, cultivate and strengthen your love for the Holy Eucharist, because Jesus in the Holy Eucharist will be your source of strength and inspiration, especially for priests.

Lastly, remember to be patient with God, and with yourself.  God knows your future and wants the best for you. He knows what you need, and when you need it.  Parts of your journey will feel slow, while other parts will fly by. St John Vianney, Patron Saint of Priests, had a long and difficult road to the priesthood. Dealing with doubts and temptations is part of your journey and a testing of your humble submission to God in all aspects of your life, wherever He leads you. To keep you heart pure along your journey, you should go to confession monthly.  You need God’s grace in this sacrament to see and hear God clearly."

In my response to him I officially asked him if he would be my spiritual director, as I do not have one yet. (Even though he has pretty much acted as one for me. hahaha) 

Well that's all for now. Maybe more tomorrow if I get a response from Fr. J.

And for some reason I cant get this back to the normal color and stuff. Oh well.